I think all stay-at-home moms, or any parent for that matter, has those days when you are just flat out exhausted- physically, emotionally, you name it. Some days I can barely pick up my toothbrush at bedtime because my arms are so tired from carrying kids all day. Some nights I just want to curl up and read a book, or watch The Voice in peace and quiet, or take a hot bath...with no kids!! Some moments I think I may scream if a kid asks me another question that begins with "why," "how," "what," etc. and some nights I wish I only had to worry about feeding me and not 4 other people! Of course I love these little critters running around my home but they can definitely be exhausting.
THEN...I have moments like tonight. As I am lying in bed with Grafton, I feel God's presence and He is telling me to SLOW DOWN. I'm reminded that Grafton starts "big girl" school in August...meaning no more mornings at home with my precious little girl. The same little girl who was born 4 short years ago, who I have spent nearly every single morning with, will be spending her mornings learning, laughing, and playing at school with friends and teachers. In just two more years, James will be joining her and won't be home making me laugh or making me scream. And then, only 4 years down the road, I won't have any children at home with me anymore. These 3 silly kids, the ones who make me laugh and make me cry and make me scream, will grow up before I know it and won't be home with me all the time anymore.
So it REALLY puts things in perspective for me. I can handle some sleepless nights right now....I can handle the sibling fights....I can handle my little boy wanting to be carried and loved on all the time....I can handle a baby girl refusing her morning nap....I can handle a 4 year old begging to do crafts all afternoon. I can handle these things because I know there is only a short time left for all this stuff...there is only a short window of opportunity before they are too old. Trying to come up with rainy day activities, fixing lunches for picky kids, playing chase for the 90th time in one afternoon, searching for the same Hot Wheels car over and over again- its all worth it. I will have plenty of "me" time in years to come...right now I am choosing "kid" time and I wouldn't change it for anything. I am choosing an extra bedtime story, a few extra hugs and kisses before naps, a cookie for breakfast and dessert before dinner...I'm choosing to love my kids, to spoil them, to show them a little too much attention right now, only because I have the opportunity to. Thank you, Lord, for waking me up tonight and reminding me of my blessings and how fleeting these precious moments are.
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Stop it right now!!!! I'm crying! These are my thoughts exactly;) we are so blessed.
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